Pink-Haired Girl (details15) wrote,
Pink-Haired Girl

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Good night

I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog kind of way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everythingI have ever looked for in another human being. And I know you think of me as just a friend and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I can’t do this any longer. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship-no pun intended-but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this way before, and I don't care, I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn’t allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I’ll accept that. But I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that and just try to dwell in it, for 10 seconds. Alyssa, there isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who’s ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can’t deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I’m forever changed because of you and what you’ve meant to me, which, while I do appreciate it, I’d never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.

I almost won a bet today that I could quote more of that movie more accurately than Beef. We never decided, however, because about 15 minutes into the movie they decided to call it off. Now, I have an urge to watch the whole thing without people talking about stuff I don't know about in the middle. But aside from that little tidbit, I really enjoyed the night. Beef, Tim is very cool, as I have already said. Would love to hang out with the two of you again. And Say Anything is excellent, classic John Cusack romance. Troy, you'd love it, I think. We'll have to watch it. I'm glad no one else was there for it; I would have gone nuts if the same kind of talking happened during a movie that I hadn't seen a million times. Oh, and I LOVED the radio scene. Absolutely fabulous. And that's it for this entry; I'd describe the customer who SCREAMED AT ME today but I don't feel like ending a great day with bitchy people.

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