i cant: seem to win the one thing that matters, even when everything else falls into place
i trust: that it all works out somehow, sooner or later
You don't know how you met me you don't know why
You can't turn around and say goodbye
All you know is when I'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
It's all been erased
And so it seems
Only in dreams
* i hold: on to the past too much
Or where is the appraiser
Who shall the claim compute,
Of one who makes you sing again
When all the songs were mute?
"What good is intellect if it leaves us immobile and frozen in indecision? At some point, despite all the other options, you have to commit yourself to a path. Being flexible if fine, it's maybe the greatest talent you can have, but in order to define yourself, you need to pursue your passion. There will always be good reasons not to do something, or to do something else, the world is full of women more beautiful than your wife, you can never choose the best car, there's always a cheaper air fare. What's most important is that you choose and get on with your life." ~Chuck Palahniuk
But without a doubt,
because without trust there is no hope,
I have never in my life felt
more alone than I do now,
for I know what I need needs me not.
Seven things you strongly dislike:
1. being told, "I'm sure there are plenty of guys chasing you"
Seven things you don't understand:
1. the reason of the heart
Right now you are:
1. avoiding stuff I should be doing
7. realizing i'll be alone for a very long time
Seven facts about you:
4. I don't think I even know what love feels like anymore
Seven things you plan to do before you die:
4. find fairy tale love agian
Seven things you can't do:
2. stop it from hurting
3. face the facts
6. use time to my advantage
7. give up
"Night is the hardest time to be alive. For me, anyway. It lasts so long, and four AM knows all my secrets. Four AM is when my dreams die."
...and when I do stupid things like send emails to people that I shouldn't send.
yeah, that was too true...
This entry too
"You live in denial, which is bad, but it's much worse to die that way." ~Christopher Pike, The Midnight Club
I don't know why I'm posting all this, again, just two people for sure and maybe one or two others will read it but I want to so here we are...
Which CowBoy BeBop Session Are You?
"It looks like my past is finally catching up with me." - Spike
Those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it.
This however never applied to you, becuase you haven't ever left that place in the past.
Deep down in your soul you feel the need to end something started long ago, in days when life was so much simpler.
Be it anger, sadness, or happiness...eventually you must let it go...but not now..not yet.
There are still some things that must be done.
Okay, I'm done. Homework time now...and no sleep. But that's my own damn fault, right?