Pink-Haired Girl (details15) wrote,
Pink-Haired Girl

From paintitblack22's journal, who got it from secretworld

I read this in Mrs. Bell's LJ and there were a few parts that hit me and I wanted to write about them. The full piece is in paintitblack22's journal. And there are parts where I added something or changed it, if it messes it up for you then I'm sorry but this is just what I thought when I read it.

The Awakening - Author Unknown
You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety, and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that you are neither Prince Charming nor Cinderella. And that, in the real world, there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings, for that matter). And that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you - and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

I think I've finally started to let go of the fairy tale that I was clinging to so desperately...and in the process, I think I've allowed myself to find that maybe fairy tale love exists after all, just in a place I wouldn't have thought to look, because I wouldn't let myself look there before. And I think by letting go I've gained more...I'm happier than I would have been otherwise. It's absolutely wonderful. It's like I've been facing the shadows with the sun on my back and suddenly I turned around and found the warmth on my face.

You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say...and there is nothing you can do about it, and that's okay, too.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the junk you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, ... and what you owe your parents, family and friends...and you start to make your own decisions because you realize that no one else will do it for you.

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing...and that IT'S OKAY TO NOT KNOW EVERYTHING. There is only one person who does, and He doesn't hold it against you that you don't. I think I'm finally getting that too.

You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say, "NO".
Enough said.

You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that there is Someone else who will carry that for you if you JUST LET HIM! Then you learn about love. How to love (like you've never been hurt), how much to give in love (everything), when to stop giving and when to walk away (And I think that last part is the hardest.)

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. Just stick this up there with the fairy tale love part, and something else I've learned to do lately.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline, and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone - and that it's OK to risk asking for help.
Yeah, I haven't learned that one yet, but hopefully it will come soon. I need it to come soon...

And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
I loved this last part the best.

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