April 29th, 2002

me

This took FOR-EV-ER!

Seven things that scare you:
1. my portfolio
2. well-made horror movies (I have learned to see the stupidity in the teen ones)
3. millipedes...the only bug I can't stand...they have all those LEGS
4. "I'm afraid to die unloved." ~The Midnight Club
5. saying something stupid and having people think I'm stupid
6. that I'm not as great as I think I am
7. not having enough credits to graduate in four years

Seven things that make you laugh:
1. Bud
2. Sarah from Napa
3. Julie
4. everything
5. Sara
6. Melissa (they don't call her Giggles for nothing)
7. Brett

Seven things you love:
1. God
2. my friends
3. him
4. my family
5. reading
6. theater
7. movies

Seven things you strongly dislike:
1. being told, "I'm sure there are plenty of guys chasing you"
2. education classes that are centered around elementary education but are still required for me
3. general education classes (It's high school all over again!)
4. power point presentations
5. not having things work out the way i want them to (I can agree with Beef on that)
6. people who discard me as unintelligent and unthinking when they find out I'm Christian
7. when people keep talking to you after you say, "I have to go now"

Seven things you don't understand:
1. the reason of the heart
2. michigan weather (ditto nik and beef)
3. how Julie can not make first impression judgments about people
4. God's plan
5. guys
6. classes offered every three years
7. people who purposely try to make others feel bad

Seven things in your room:
1. my favorite books
2. my posters
3. my pictures
4. my puppy
5. the phone
6. a tv and vcr
7. my roommate

Right now you are:
1. avoiding stuff I should be doing
2. not really tired
3. wishing i had someone to miss
4. talking to Bud (what else is new?)
5. thinking too hard about these questions
6. going through Playing By Heart withdrawal
7. realizing i'll be alone for a very long time (at least according to Bud)

Seven facts about you:
1. I tend to look on the bright side of things
2. I haven't cried in a while
3. When my friends get sad, my heart hurts
4. I don't think I even know what love feels like anymore
5. I'm addicted to internet
6. I love poetry
7. I hate the fact that I haven't written anything decent in forever (if ever)

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. visit Australia
2. direct
3. be able to have a real discussion about Christianity and truly hold my own
4. find fairy tale love agian
5. be a wife and mother
6. live where it's warm
7. start a drama ministry team at my church and/or school

Seven things you can do:
1. smile
2. cheer people up (usually)
3. make my friends laugh (sometimes)
4. write in HTML
5. clean
6. be patient
7. act

Seven things you can't do:
1. sing (but that doesn't stop me from doing it)
2. stop it from hurting
3. face the facts
4. stop giving off "I'm taken" vibes, apparently
5. sleep
6. use time to my advantage
7. give up

Top seven favorite movies:
1. Playing By Heart
2. Chasing Amy
3. Moulin Rouge
4. Ever After (are we starting to see a pattern here?)
5. Sleepless In Seattle
6. The Secret of The Sword
7. Cruel Intentions

Top seven favorite books:
1. The Midnight Club by Christopher Pike
2. Neverwhere by Neil Gaimen
3. Remember Me by Christopher Pike
4. Hinds' Feet On High Places by Hannah Hurnard
5. Love Story by Erich Segal
6. Sati by Christopher Pike
7. A Wrinkle In Time by Madeline L'Engle

Top seven things you say the most:
1. what?
2. cool
3. that was SO FUNNY
4. (*laugh*)
5. I do not!
6. (*insert quote here*)
7. riiiiiiiight

Seven best friends (in alphabetical order):
1. Robert C. Beumel
2. Sarah Kramer
3. Sara LaFrance
4. Melissa Morgan
5. Troy Pugliese
6. Julie Roerdink
7. Brett Thurman
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I love this song...

Dreams within the still of night
On wings of hope take flight inside of me
There upon some distant shore
We want for nothing more than what will be
And you and I, here we are
I wonder as we've come this far...

If I could only read your mind
Tell me the answer I would find
Do you dream of me?
And when you're smiling in your sleep
Beyond the promises we keep
Do you dream of me?

Love has found a magic space
A deep and hidden place where time stands still
Now I hold you in my arms
You know you hold my heart and always will

And you and I, here we are
And it's a wonder that we've come this far.

And after all that we've been through
You've leaned on me, I've leaned on you
Do you dream of me?
And when you're smiling in your sleep
Beyond the promises we keep
Do you dream of me?

If I could only read your mind
Tell me the answer I would find
Do you dream of me?
And when you're smiling in your sleep
Beyond the promises we keep
Do you dream of me?
And after all that we've been through
You've leaned on me, I've leaned on you.
Do you dream of me?
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Forwards

This was in an email I just got...I liked the one at the end...

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

Love anyway, cry on someone else's shoulder, try to be truly happy as often as possible, tell them today, ...
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    "Later On"
drama

Some Random Whats And Thoughtful Hows

Finally got to watch Playing By Heart today...that addiction is satisfied for now.

Speaking of addictions, my friends are great. When I'm low on drugs they deal them out to me. Julie dumped half a bottle of painkillers in my hand today.

Julie also got these awesome mints from her mom in the mail. They are shaped like fish...the Christian fish symbol. Very nice. I think I want some.

Good news about Fish...I might be able to do it next year, even if I go to Australia--YEA! Lori says she's made exceptions in the past, usually for student teachers, but she might do it for me too, depending on stuff. I love Fish so much, it's the one thing that would keep me in the States next year. I am going to miss Ohio so much. (Never expected those words to come out of my mouth.)

In other news...the school is changing part of its policy. The interesting thing is, no one really knows to what extent it is going to be enforced. For those of you who don't know, I go to Concordia University River Forest, which is an official university of the Lutheran Church Missouri Synod. Actually, from what I've been told, it's one of the more liberal of the Concordia's. Anyway, the new policy basically states that a professor employed by the university must publicly represent the views of the LCMS and cannot teach contrary opinions in his or her classrooms. Which, in part, I generally agree with. For instance, at a function where they are publicly representing the university, they should represent the university and that includes the "university's" views on whatnot. But the way the policy is worded, it could be taken to a bad extreme. For instance, a professor asked the president if she couldn't, according to the new policy, teach Sunday School in her non-LCMS church, because the way parts of the policy (which I meant to bring a copy of, I left it in the room) are stated it could be taken to that extreme. (And yes, I think that is an extreme.) But the president said, "I don't know," because it's so new that people haven't thought about things like that. But the thing is, I know Lutheran politics, and I could see the Board of Regents taking it to that level, because Lutherans with power are scary people. And for those profs who don't have tenure, they could get fired if they don't sign the new agreement. That is something else that I don't agree with. But the main focus of the policy as I can see it is in classes profs aren't allowed to express opinions contrary to the univerisity. Some of the staff of the paper went out to dinner tonight, and we were talking about it, and the editor was really pissed because some of the protestors didn't like his opinion on it. He basically said that this is a university of the LCMS and they can do what they damn well please. Which I happen to disagree with in part. My problem is the "in classes" part of the policy. For instance, does this mean we don't learn about anything contrary to the Lutheran Church? I have a big problem with this. I think to form an educated opinoin about issues it's important to know both (all) sides and then decide which is the one that you agree with. That's why right now, if asked I say that I have no opinion on female pastors because I don't know enough about it. And if the LCMS view is the only view I ever learn about, I'll never have an opinion because I won't know the whole story. And the university requires that I take a bunch of gen ed classes, to make me a well-rounded individual. Only getting one slanted religious viewpoint will NOT make me a well-rounded individual. So that's why I am not sure I like the new policy. Anyone else who wants to tell me what they think (and please don't bash the school, as many problems as I have with some aspects of Concordia and stuff, I do like my school in general, and besides, bashing anything in an debate/discussion really discredits everything else you say, so show some maturity please).

I already have a full schedule for the first weekend I get back. I'm excited about this summer. I just hope that Party City doesn't hate me for not working weekends, but I would end up taking them all off anyway, so it wouldn't matter much if I said I was available or not.

All right, I guess this is long enough for today. Good luck with finals everyone, I'm sure I'll update some more later.
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