October 7th, 2002

defeated

For my sad friends right now...

"Everyone knew that whoever let the sadness overtake him would sink into the swamp...Fight against the sadness Artax. Artax, please. You're letting the sadness of the swamps get to you. You have to try, you have to care. For me, I'm your friend, I love you." ~Barret Oliver and Noah Hathaway, The Neverending Story

"I will hurt, and I will eventually heal, but right now I need to hurt." ~Julie Roerdink

"When i look in the mirror
I can't believe what i see
Tell me who's that funky dude
Starin' back at me
Broken beaten down
can't even get around
god an old man came
fall and hit the ground
shivering in the cold
bitter and alone
excuse the bitchin'
i shouldn't complain
i should have no feeling
'cause feeling is pain
'cause everything i need
is denied me
and everything i want
is taken away from me
but who do i got to blame
nobody but me
and i don't wanna be a lone man anymore
it's been a year or two since i was down on the floor
shakin' booty making sweet love all the night
it's time i got back to the good life
it's time i got back
it's time i got back
and i don't even know how i got off the track
i wanna go back, yeah"
~Weezer, "The Good Life"

"There was never a night or a problem that could defeat sunrise or hope." ~Bern Williams
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    crazy crazy
s60 harriet half smile

That was a long time in coming...

my hands are so cold its hard to type. I had a great time tonight. Julie and I were bored so we decided we would try to get people together to play board games and stuff. me, well, i figured that no one would really want to, specially since most of the people we normally hang out with are all gone for the break (we have monday off cause my school is on crack). Well, we actually got four other people to come, and we played Apples to Apples. And they loved it!!! I was so excited. As I often am when I introduce that game to people and they enjoy it. We played two games in a row, and then we ordered pizza, which I payed for, but that was okay cause I was starving. And Domino's near our school is cool, they have a college special which basically means half price for your pizza. So I got two larges plus a 2 liter and an order of cinnasticks for 21 dollars. So then we pigged out and we had just started to play Act One (I've had the stupid game for over 3 years and this is the first time I've actually had people to play it...not counting the one time with my family). So that was just crazy. Lyndsay kept making the greatest faces when she recognized a movie. It cracked us all up, me moreso than anyone else. And two more people joined us in the middle of that. One of them was Ryan, more on that in a second...So anyway, then after that was over we played Apples to Apples again. Then we had to break it up because of intervis...grr, the trials of going to a stupid Lutheran college. So then I came over to the lab and got to talk to a bunch of people that I never talk to anymore and I got to play gin with Troy and it's been a really great night thus far.

Okay, so that thing with Ryan. So he's in the play I'm in. He's a pretty cool guy. Has a great taste in music- Weezer-like punk was what he was playing during set painting. A tatoo of the Christian fish symbol on his wrist. I kinda spent some time with him today painting for the set and he seems like a pretty cool guy. He reminds me some of Beef. Kinda lonerish. He plays the guitar. That's really cool. He likes movies and music that he says most people have never heard of, which makes having conversations with people hard. Calls himself friendless. This is a very random entry, but that's okay. I just wanted to mention it cause I was thinking about it. Not that I think anything will ever come of it, cause nothing ever really does, but that's okay. God knows what He wants for me. Sometimes I just think he's keeping it a secret, that's all.
  • Current Music
    Weezer mix