October 22nd, 2004

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Damn hormones can't decide if they want to be happy or sad.

This has just been a bad week overall for student teaching, I think. I've been sick and it's been hard to plan, I'm still behind in a lot of stuff. Taking a day off to get better didn't seem to help. I think I overdid it today with lighting and everything cause I got back to the room and passed out and didn't get up until 10. Then I had to write two lessons. And one I still can't figure out what to do about. I hate having to go over stuff again when only a small portion of the class doesn't get it, because I remember what it was like to be in high school when I understood it all and I was so bored, and there's a girl in class who's just like that right now and I wish I could move faster for her, but I can't. I don't know, it's just frustrating. And part of it is my fault, I didn't explain this the best way the first time around, Chris made me realize that tonight. So that has me all frustrated.

I'm so confused. I was fairly happy when Anna was in here half an hour ago, and now all of a sudden I'm all sad again. I don't know what to make of it. I feel really really lonely. Stupid hormones. MAKE UP YOUR MIND!

This morning was really good. I realize what I've been doing wrong; I just hope I can follow through on my promise to make it right.

My nose hurts so much right now. It's all red and raw. You really wanted to know that.

I really miss you. Both of you.

I think I'll go see if Anna is still up and give/get another hug. We probably both need it. I hope school tomorrow goes okay. I guess we'll just have to see.
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Sarah's show opens soon. I got flowers for Ashley and Anna and so did Katie. I feel kind of sad that I wasn't more of a part of it. Things with Sarah will never be the way they used to, though. Which makes me sad. But anyway, hopefully her play will be great, it's really funny. I'm excited about seeing Anna on stage as well. I'm not quite as excited about the lighting stuff afterward, but hey, whatcha gonna do? Make Jordan take me out, that's what I'm gonna do.
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Finished lighting. I am so glad that I'm not doing anything with it tomorrow.

I'm gonna try to get up early and get some work done early. I doubt it will work but I'm gonna try. I really need to do some matrix and portfolio stuff. Damn stupid fairy tale faire taking up three to four hours of time and then I still planned on going shopping with Holly that I really don't have time for but I really want to do and I really need comfortable shoes anyway. But I whine too much.

Lighting was missing Jordan.
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