January 21st, 2005

dream sad

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Well, for someone who claims not to cry a lot anymore I've sure done a decent amount in the past few days.

It's really lonely not having many friends around. I wish I were at CURF. At least there I have people that I know I can hang out with who don't mind driving half an hour out of the way to pick me up cause even if I had my license I still wouldn't have a car so I still wouldn't be able to go anywhere.

I'm just feeling sorry for myself tonight, in a bad way.

The only time I leave the house is to go to work. And my mom wonders why I am on the phone so much. What the hell else am I supposed to do?

I eat, sleep, watch tv, read, and work. I have no motivation to clean (no one's ever here but me and like I care) or do anythiing else. Hell, I didn't even shower for like four days.

This is going to be a really long six months.