February 12th, 2005

dream sad

That was hard

I don't want to sleep.

I hate feeling helpless. I hate when someone is hurting and I can't even give them a hug. I hate feeling helpless. Or just completely useless.

I stayed up an extra hour listening to my cheer-up list and it didn't really help. I want to listen to sad songs but I refuse to let myself. Does that make any sense?

I feel like I exchanged my upbeatness for his sadness. At least he's sleeping well tonight.
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