Damn hormones can't decide if they want to be happy or sad.
This has just been a bad week overall for student teaching, I think. I've been sick and it's been hard to plan, I'm still behind in a lot of stuff. Taking a day off to get better didn't seem to help. I think I overdid it today with lighting and everything cause I got back to the room and passed out and didn't get up until 10. Then I had to write two lessons. And one I still can't figure out what to do about. I hate having to go over stuff again when only a small portion of the class doesn't get it, because I remember what it was like to be in high school when I understood it all and I was so bored, and there's a girl in class who's just like that right now and I wish I could move faster for her, but I can't. I don't know, it's just frustrating. And part of it is my fault, I didn't explain this the best way the first time around, Chris made me realize that tonight. So that has me all frustrated.
I'm so confused. I was fairly happy when Anna was in here half an hour ago, and now all of a sudden I'm all sad again. I don't know what to make of it. I feel really really lonely. Stupid hormones. MAKE UP YOUR MIND!
This morning was really good. I realize what I've been doing wrong; I just hope I can follow through on my promise to make it right.
My nose hurts so much right now. It's all red and raw. You really wanted to know that.
I really miss you. Both of you.
I think I'll go see if Anna is still up and give/get another hug. We probably both need it. I hope school tomorrow goes okay. I guess we'll just have to see.
