Found this in quotes...seemed damn appropriate in the worst way
"Love is knowing that no matter how much it hurts that someone will never leave you alone. Love is knowing how much you belong to someone when you feel like the rest of the world has abandoned you. Love is knowing that no matter what happens I will always hold your hand and love you in return. Don't you get it, Jack? Love isn't about how much it hurts if it ends. Love is about how much it makes you happy while you have it. If you knew Manny would have died like that would you have given up loving him all your life to avoid that pain?"