You would think I would be sad after realizing today that I was most definitely not anymore. You would think I would be sad after realizing that one of my dreams for the past ?four? years is dead. They seem like things that would make one feel sad.
Except that I haven't really felt anything for awhile now. "To fully experience life, the extremes of happiness and sadness must be felt" (or something like that) ~Brett Thurman...right now I don't feel like I'm exactly living.
I think right now I would take being in love with someone who didn't love me back, or who did but wouldn't date me, or did but I couldn't be with because of distance, or who thought I was the most disgusting thing on the planet, instead of this nothing inside.
I very much miss being in love.