This sounds kinda bitter but I'm not really...cause I'm not really anything
I felt very anti-social today. Maybe if I drank I wouldn't have felt so out of place. It was hard to include myself in most of the conversations, since they were mostly revolving around alcohol. And seeing as I don't drink, I didn't have a whole lot to add. I mean, my stories about alcohol are ones about my father getting so wasted that he and my mom fought and he threatened to divorce her, and ended up sleeping in the car all night, or my mom getting wasted and not caring about her children, or my dad calling me a bitch because I was upset that mom was wasted and didn't care about her children. Or me comforting my sisters when they were too young to understand why mom didn't want to put them to bed. Most people don't want to hear those kinds of drinking stories.